Hiking the Chief

I recently hiked the Chief with my daughter strapped to my back. It was a tough one, but very rewarding.

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I am Spartan

Why is it that it takes the deadline of going back to work soon to force me into action?! Two months before I return to work, I realize I need to finally lose the baby weight.

I’ve spent this last month kicking my butt into action. It was pretty humbling to start. I’ve always known I was overweight. But in the back of my mind, I would justify it with the fact that I am active and fit. So when I went for my first run with a girlfriend, I was very dismayed to discover that I couldn’t run for more than a few minutes at a time and when I was running I was very slow. It was the biggest wake up call. But thank goodness I had it.

During the month of May, I ran twice a week; I worked with a personal trainer twice a week; and I went to bootcamp twice a week. A lot of it was preparation for a race, but the underlying goal was to finally shed the weight and get fit.

Well I haven’t lost a damn pound! Its been super discouraging. There were a few days where I just wanted to cry. Mostly I thought, ‘it’s not fair’. I want to be one of those naturally skinny girls!

However, participating in the Spartan Sprint on the weekend (a 5km obstacle race) gave me some pride that losing a pound could never provide. The race was way beyond my comfort zone. I desperately wanted to back out. It was beyond hard. But wow do I feel amazing for finishing it. In fact, my inspiration to continue working towards fitness and health has grown. Today I started meal planning and looking at what else I can do to improve. I feel so good about the future now.

It’s funny, when I started this post, I thought it would be more about procrastination. But when I started writing, I realized how good I was feeling about myself! Forget the scale. Instead of focusing on losing weight, I’m going to focus on gaining health!

Ps. The picture is the start of the race, running uphill in the snow. Sadly I didn’t get one of myself covered in mud at the end because I was too focused on getting out of the wet clothes!

Yeah me! I can really do it

So tonight I got all ready to go the gym: made a bottle, got dressed, fed and changed A, got us all loaded up in the car and drove there. Only to be told the daycare was full and I would need to come back in an hour. Yeah right! I would get home sit down and never make it back up. But I reserved the daycare spot and drove home.

I was determined to go back. I didn’t even allow myself the consideration that I could stay home. Usually, I would convince myself that I could just workout at home after A had gone to bed (and wouldn’t).

One hour later, I was driving back and in the gym! I felt so proud of myself. And that is why I workout.

All it takes is a little perspective

I’ve been down on myself for being so out of shape and failing to lose the rest of my baby weight. As I’ve mentioned, the more I think badly about myself the harder it is to work out (weird, I know).

But this morning, I brought a friend to the gym to keep me motivated. She’s a new and single mom too. I planned out a circuit for us and a few minutes into it she said, “who needs a trainer, I’ll just work out with you. I could almost puke!”. It made me realize that while I’m not at my pre-baby fitness level, I’m working out and a lot fitter than some people.

I came out of the gym on a total high. I’m sure some of it was the endorphins from exercising. But I also felt totally proud of myself. I’m bringing sexy back!

Back to Reality

I was dreading the activity I had planned for myself today. I’d arranged to go snowshoeing with a girlfriend and her son who is two weeks younger than A. For some reason, I get major anxiety before snowshoeing. I’m not sure exactly why. Maybe because I’m afraid it will be too hard or because I always do it with someone else and I’m nervous I won’t be able to keep up. Either way, once I start I’m always fine.
Today, however, was a bit of a wake up call. I am out of shape. I’ve never been a skinny girl, but I’ve always considered myself fit. I realized today that I am far from fit and most likely almost always have been. I’ve created some alternative reality where it was ok to carry some extra pounds because I was fit. But a fit person could have made it up those hills without huffing and puffing and getting red in the face.
Time to wake up to the truth and do something about it! This week’s workout challenge will be a good start and a way to push me into some better habits.

Compliment of the Day

I thought it would get easier, so far that’s not the case.

Although, I do feel pretty proud of myself for teaching a spin class for the first time since June! A 45 minute intense bike class where I’m on display. A microphone amplifying every huff and puff attached to my head. Teaching again reminded me of my capability in both strength and leadership. My speed might have been a tad slower than my pre-baby days, but I felt confident on the bike.

So today, my compliment to myself goes two ways: I have strong legs and I am a great teacher.